I hesitated before answering her, " almost, I need maybe several more months.."

One month ago, when I was so badly worrying about never having chance to forget everything about him, I really missed my ex a lot and a lot, BUT BUT BUT.

Now, when I recalled some sweet moments with him before, the next following second I 'll immdediately reminded myself that, this guy, which I was in love with so much, has kissed another one, held the hands of another one, or..mabe has slept with another one. RIGHT AWAY RIGHT AWAY,

A sense of dirty vomit spermed out and ate out every single sweet feeling which was ever the most hard part of forgeting the memory.

So,

Actually to get over a man is easy for me , as long as he starts a new relationship.

That's it.

Bye...

I was just not that attractive only to you, it's not my fault.

Love is a beautiful thing, I will find someone really deserving me to share it.

Still, I have to say,

... the more I was hurt in the relationship with you, the stronger I will become in my future life.

The happinesses with you made me, the loneliness given by you made me,  maybe the one who will stay with you with the rest of your life will be the lucky one, but she is still not that luckily as me, because...

The one ever with me was more real, more lost, more charming..the one with her..was just a loser rapped by the life and finally became numb.

I wish you no more nightmare.

Be good to people who treat me well.

Don't always expect someone jumping from the sky, and save me from depression.

Seize every single...moment in the life.

Be good, my dear.

It's been couple of months since our last meet, these days the company  business seemed prosperous and therefore them pilots would travel more requently.

Asking me about my marriage date, he did not know that I was dating a guy bewildering about future. He tried to express his understanding on Asian culture for marriage, since he was also involved : )

I lied to him.

by saying we postponed the wedding date, blabla.. but the fact is, even the right person, who I considered him is, probably never placed me as the one who deserved his rest of life.  

When I was a kid, except for English lesson, there seems no other class can attract my enough attention.

I was talented for detail observation, language, speaking and understanding; however those characteristics could not make me confident enough. Always feeling awkward after the economic status of my family deteriorated. Too sensitive, too much stress, always feeling living on the alms-basket..

Never enough sense of security.

Those above sentences seemed not directly link to my absence in mind while work; however I know, in my own heartfelt way, those are key factors attributable to my failures, loss, and distraction…

Sometimes I expect him to save me, from those tortures.

However, at the end, it turned out to be, the one who temporarily saved me from suffering, became a new source of torture for me, who relies my sense of happiness totally on a person.

Just murmuring…

..when the kinky lady again, found herself capricious during a start of a new morning work.

I can't find enough words to describe these days' horrible weather.

Obama visited the Summer Palace and Forbidden City, I noticed a picture shot for him in front of the famous square.

This smart and handsome guy.

If you ask me why the name is southern-rain, please don't push the answer further.

It's just a name, of course related to somebody, but of course, it's just an inspiration in a flash, nothing meaningful or memorizing..